blog.olya

once graduate:
paint the living room. grey. and hang art! (mom’s, stalker’s, mine).
go outside and take photographs (in the magic hour. i miss daylight!)
take shady for a walk downtown (similarly, miss shady AND daylight)
read a book in the park (… daylight …)
tan ( … )
contemplate that i am about to graduate somewhere peaceful. like a park.
under the sun.
with a book.

i really need sunlight.

once start working again:
get a metafilter account.
get a flickr pro account.
get nice lamps for the living room.
get Sigma 28-70mm f/2.8 EX or Sigma 20mm f/1.8 EX or Sigma 105mm f/2.8 EX DG Macro. All. So. Good. and all are under $500 USD. not even sure which one i want more! f1.8 wide angle? man.

my favourite

walked around u of t last wednesday after a photoshoot scheduled did not occur. took a lot of pretty nice/rain/leaves/streetlamp photographs, and also played around with the remote control a bit.

the son of man is a painting that i really like for some reason.

i’m stuck on my essay “are mental states and processes identical to brain’s states and processes” for like the 5th day. having a completely head numbing fly isn’t helping - i try to think, but its not working.

the biggest problem is that last semester, i had a philosophy and psych/phil class, where my essays whipped ass. i’m proud of those essays. they’re my cherished creations that state an interesting point eloquently, with arguments that i consider innovative.

this essay topic however seems to be at the same time too general and too limiting. it is too general as the prof seems to want us to answer the question, which pretty much reduces any kind of theorization on related matters to an impossibility, and it is too limiting as i can’t discuss anything except for the freaking mind-body identity.

i don’t want to write a boring essay, and each time i sit down to, my brain refuses to form coherent sentences.

however when i give in to the urge to write on whether “love is a brain process” which is kinda related to the question, i have stuff coming far more easily. kinda. but still more easily. (and i don’t know why love - maybe i need to find a different topic which would make it easier? i just really enjoy the question of love in particular as it relates to our emotions about other people, which is very tough to peg as a strictly internal process).

maybe someone sees a better question? the paper is due friday morning (so in exactly 36 hours). its so bloody annoying, because i know i could whip a great paper in like 3-4 hours, given how many ideas i have, BUT THEY ARE JUST THE WRONG IDEAS AND I CANT WRITE A BORING PAPER ON THE “RIGHT” IDEAS aaah! i want to write INTERESTING stuff!

p.s. for diny and others who wanted pretty visuals - go here. even though it doesn’t have much new stuff, its in progress of becoming the core of olya.org.

apparently even as a self centered blog this entirely blows, cause i don’t care enough to write about myself. aren’t you happy!

philosophy essay handed in. yay for developing thinking.

databases is done. yay for tim’s brilliance.

saturday - harry potter and tim’s party.

sunday - study! w00t for starting 4 days earlier than usual.

i went to my mom’s work’s new year party today (they always celebrate it a month early - must be out of consideration for those of us who have birthdays on dec 30th!). it was fantastically decorated (40’s black and pink theme - stunning.), and the food was awesome.

cooking wise - meh, nothing lately. no time. reheating food.

clothes wise - i was sick, and then writing papers, and then sick some more. same pair of jeans and sneakers for the past week. yeah, i’m changing the shirts, but even the sweater is the same dark grey turtleneck from netherlands.
tonight i’m going spiffy. driving downtown in black(some kind of)top and my favourite green skirt.