my personal timeline – Page 89 – trying to keep track of my life

the weekend!

date: 1090122873

mood: exceeAdingly pleased with the proposal
listening to:

http://www.mcsweeney…sts/30scenarios.html

this week felt like it lasted forever. only 5 weeks of work left. exactly. and then… a week off. and then… europe. maastricht. new things.

i can’t imagine that i have 5 weeks… okay, 6 weeks, left here.

i am happy now. its scary, to be happy.

for a long time i wasn’t happy, and i wished i could be, and i had no idea how to … be. and now, that i feel … okay, with me and things which are around me, i don’t know how i got here. is it chance? is it coincidence? is it the people who are now around me (or not around me)?

i am lucky. i was lucky in many regards, especially with my family. i never had to worry about the basic necessities, and that makes me lucky when juxtaposed with the rest of the world.

but luck has nothing to do with the way our lives turn out. i wish it was more about what we are…

brazensix, i am sorry for your multiple losses, both financial as well as the emotional weight that comes with losing personal things.

when life throws you lemons, make lemonade.

where does one get the sugar though?

The young genius

date: 1090981707

mood: accomplished
listening to:pink floyd – another brick in the wall

… oh where have the years gone ..

preparations: 3 weeks to go

date: 1091941248 (August 8 2004)

mood: nervous
listening to:spider man, spider man, wealth and fame, he

i have never left home for 4 months. i mean, totally alone from everyone.
im trying to figure out how to not forget anything.

and i jut found out that there’s an ikea in my next door town, which costs only 10 euro’s to get to, and that means i can leave some stuff at home (no, im not gonna buy furniture and get it here, i mean stuff like clothe hangers and a bed stand, cuz i wont have one – so like something simple)

i only wish their website could in english! babel fish and their website programming kinda doesnt work.

http://www.ikea.nl/w…01&StoreName=heerlen

sickness

date: 1092196264

mood: sick to my bones
listening to:

i’m sick, again! that’s twice, fever and really headache in 2 weeks. and throat hurt for whole week.

the world is ending, i came to check on people and almost no one updated their blogs.
like, we’re getting a life. or growing up. or just its summer and we’re all busy not doing anything.

being sick, sucks.

16 days left.

I GOT MY DRIVING LISENCE

date: 1092339549

mood: speechlessly happy
listening to:driving songs

i cried before and i danced after.

hesi, your driving instructor is the best evah.

i am exstatic. (sic?)

and im going to go… DRIVE. on my own. wooooooooooo!

camping weekend

date: 1092630494

mood: speechlessly happy
listening to:delerium – truly (featuring nerina pallot) OMFG HTE BEST SONG EVAH

okay, it should be illegal to be so happy.

i had an awesome weekend. i can’t even begin to describe. thank you.

it is so nice to spend time with people and be completely de-stressed, and not worried and stuffs.

this is how olya looks right before falling asleep:

next week is my last week of work, and the week after that i’m leaving to maastricht.

w00t wed

date: 1092830785

mood: in pain but excited
listening to:

omg wednedsday! okay that looks like it has too many d’s in it.

yay i’m getting a haircut today!

aaand possible a movie afterwards! woohoo!

aand free bbq today at work!

now i’mgoing to go take some advils and the world will become a bettah place.

last night was hilarious. scarf can’t tell time but he can paint within the lines. b6, stop hitting on him already! we all know the truth…

and the truth shall be revealed..

oh shit, there’s my alarm clock, i’m late.

oh well, no truth for you today.

saved by the bell

date: 1092916360

mood: sleepy /excited
listening to:

okaay so i was gonna write an entry last night but i had to do some sleeping and i got carried away.

i ended up not getting a haircut yesterday cause the washing thing for hair broke (in hairdresser’s place), and she can’t cut my hair if its dry, and i was gonna get highlights and we’d need water, so i couldn’t wash and come.

so its moved to sunday morning.

anyway.

i’m gonna enterntain you by juggling these coffee cups… but my mom would kill me if i broke them, so instead i’ll share the great news of today.

i woke up early (6:40), reluctantly climbed out of bed, took a shower and dried my hair. (7:00) usually i have like 20 minutes to dress before my parents wake up and my mom drops me and dad off at the subway.
but my mom was already up
(exciting, eh?)
anyway, point is my mom was leaving early and my dad tagged along, but since its my last week and i don’t really have anything to do – 2 days left – i stayed home.

this is the first time in at least 4 months when i have the house all to myself in the morning. i drank tea, ate two great sandwiches with cream cheese. and watching saved by the bell. teehee.

uhm, this was perhaps the most pointless entry evah. and i gotta go actually dress. but this lying down watching tv sufing and being all alone was AWESOME!

Update: my package is coming here!!! UPS is AWESOME. it was moving over night (i can see with the tracking number) and its now in concord:
http://ca.maps.yahoo…C+ontario&country=ca
it came there at 6:37am
omgomg!
damnit
i wish it coul dbe delivered before i left!