date: 1086741607

mood: shaking
listening to:nin – down in it

this is so much stress
the week just started, and i came home physically shaking… i watched 4 episodes of sex and the city with mom, and now its down to a soft blur, but damn…

stress

of course i’d rather have this stress than nothing, but i’m so tired, and i feel that when i come home i just don’t have the energy to deal with anyone or anything – i just wanna come home and hide, and not have conflicts and not talk even.

its hard to explain, because i’m not the most active person online lately, but i don’t usually freak out at the thought of talking on irc.

i’m so tired that i can’t even clean my room or redesign the blog.

date: 1087013257

mood:
listening to:

working 9-5, mon-fri makes you appreciate:

– jeans
– sweatshirts
– summer skirts
– running shoes
– wine
– excersize
– outside
– weekend

date: 1087059793

mood:
listening to:

napolen dynamite monday, 7pm

me + 7 people who were at pladium last saturday, or were supposed to be *cough*. its a special advance screening so we better go!

and now i’m gone to bike with parents

d70 aint being sold within ontario or buffalo

2 week waiting list

when in rome do like romans do – i’ll get on the waiting list this weekend

date: 1087358299

mood:
listening to:

how depressing.

some have sisters, some others have sisters too, some have cars, some have hesi, and i have her.

date: 1087423547

mood:
listening to:

having fun rocks.

i’m addicted to body wash.

i spent less than 3 hours in the past week on the computer at home. scary.

2 of those hours were last night in a deviantART conference call.

scarier!

i want to go shopping. again. am i an addict?

yes i am.

i have .. coupons and i didn’t use them! aah fuck!

date: 1087663151

mood:
listening to:sasha – immortal

i’m getting my new laptop like … nownownownownow. like … within 30 minutes. like, omg.

everyone, say thank you to Oleg who spent time making sure its a good one (and comes at a more-than-reasonable-more-like-omg-i-cant-believe-it price)

thank you Oleg!

also today i’ll be getting a manicure and a pedicure, for the first time in my LIFE. isn’t that exciting?

and this weekend officially means i have 2-3 weeks left before my d70 gets here.

life isn’t about material things, but they sure can make you happy!

date: 1087788161

mood:
listening to:

http://antwrp.gsfc.n…v/apod/ap040620.html
http://scarf.modblog…gview&blog_id=201252

date: 1088420058

mood: yawning, sleepy
listening to:leonard cohen – closing time

i can wake up at 6, look at me.
i actually woke up earlier, but it only counts when i got up, so that was 6.
and now i’m sleepy, and have to go to work sooooon.

i got my new camera! its such a beauty that words fail to describe it. i’m very quietly ecstatic.

date: 1089630032

mood: exceedingly pleased with the proposal
listening to:book: pride and prejudice chapter 47

sorry for not updating.
my days are spent working, and accordingly, relaxing after work.

the last hugest event on which i absolutely must write up a blog entry on is my going to colorado, however every time i’m home i don’t touch the computer as i’m too tired of it from work.

well a slight exaguration but still… too tired.

i have 5 gigs of photographs from that trip. some of them *gasp* not horrible. i still didn’t do anything with them! not even sorting. blah!!

http://www.neimanmar…ml?item=prod14510116
http://www.neimanmar…splayImage=alternate

date: 1090122873

mood: exceeAdingly pleased with the proposal
listening to:

http://www.mcsweeney…sts/30scenarios.html

this week felt like it lasted forever. only 5 weeks of work left. exactly. and then… a week off. and then… europe. maastricht. new things.

i can’t imagine that i have 5 weeks… okay, 6 weeks, left here.

i am happy now. its scary, to be happy.

for a long time i wasn’t happy, and i wished i could be, and i had no idea how to … be. and now, that i feel … okay, with me and things which are around me, i don’t know how i got here. is it chance? is it coincidence? is it the people who are now around me (or not around me)?

i am lucky. i was lucky in many regards, especially with my family. i never had to worry about the basic necessities, and that makes me lucky when juxtaposed with the rest of the world.

but luck has nothing to do with the way our lives turn out. i wish it was more about what we are…

brazensix, i am sorry for your multiple losses, both financial as well as the emotional weight that comes with losing personal things.

when life throws you lemons, make lemonade.

where does one get the sugar though?