Category: uncategorized

date: 1083548628

mood: meditative
listening to:malcolm mclaren – about her, from kill bill 2

Buddy walked to the centre of the stage and, to Cliff’s amazement, just stood there looking down at his feet.

The cheering began to subside.

And then died away altogether. The huge hall was filled with the hush of hundreds of people holding their breath.

Buddy’s fingers moved.

He picked out three simple little chords.

And then he looked up.

‘Hello, Ankh-Morpork!’

Cliff felt the music rise up behind him and rush him forward into a tunnel of fire and sparks and excitement. He brought his hammers down. And it was Music With Rocks In.

date: 1081578964

mood: all weird and moody.
listening to:guess

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you’re never coming round
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround, bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I’m lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I’ve got to get out and cry
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then 1 see the look in your eyes
Turnaround, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight, and I need you more then ever
And if you on1y hold me tight, we’ll be holding on forever
And we’ll only be making it right, ‘cause we’ll never be wrong
Together we can make it till the end of the line,

Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don’t know what to do, and I’m always in the dark
We’re living in a powder keg and giving of sparks
I really need you tonight,

Forever’s gonna start tonight, Forever’s gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love, and now I’m only falling apart
There’s nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life, and now there’s only love in the dark
There’s nothing I can say, a total eclipse of the heart

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scarfy is so the best.
check out what he gave me! i am super duper special. and that seriously make me want to go buy some wood and rebuild half my room to make it PERFECT.

the only problem is that i have a lot of things i want hanging on my wall. the book is fantastic. thank you scarfy!

i had an awesome evening. thank you all!

date: 1080018904

mood:
listening to:

note to self:
posting while boiling mad at someone who doesn’t even read this blog is NOT a good idea as it confuses my friends and leads to general screwed upness.

i am seriously considering dropping computer science major. i dislike programming, or at least i think i dislike it despite my parents keeping on insiting how much i really do like i just dont know it yet.

i have 5 half courses left. its nothing, really, i could theoretically be done with all of them within the next year.

*sighs*

i don’t feel like giving up, but right now all i want is NOT to program but to do logic proofs. (go figure…)

date: 1078528539

mood:
listening to:

i’m tired.

date: 1075127545

mood: needing contact lens solution
listening to:edge102 commercial/people talking, aaand my palm alarm blaring

i stayed up until ~5am doing my cs assignment last night. putting things to last minute – tsk tsk.

anyway, its done… it works. today in school i’ll edit comments, and be done.

since i have a morning class i gotta go to i tried to make a system of alarms that’d wake me up.

first the quietest one but the one that will keep going. my palm. closest to bed.

then the cellphone, like 20 minutes later

and then the radio, like 10 minutes later (its like 9:00 am at this point… by my time, more or less), on a volume that’s reasonably loud but listanble.

so i can drift off and i know i’ll get waken up by the two small intermitted alarms (cell/palm), and i can continuously hear the radio and not worry about totally drifting off.

it worked well! im dead tired but i’m up. going to drink tea and eat breakfast and go to school. -14, snowing, and i cant figure out what shoud i wear. *looks* aaww damn, its -24 with windchill, so its freezing. blaaaaaaaaaaaaah, so tired of freezing.

*yaaaaaaaaaaaawns* good morning people.

date: 1073381297

mood: falling into soft bed with shady at my feet
listening to:ace of base – all that she wants

school start :|

mental leaving :(
hesi coming back :)

playing with palm :)
keyboard not working :(

lcd monitor fun :)

did productive stuff :)

fishy better :D
probably, maybe, hopefully will live :D
fins are still unhealthy :(

room is a mess :(
schedule (time schedule) is a mess :(

but overall,

:)

date: 1119508583

mood: falling asleep on my feet
listening to:the principles of lust

all my problems boil down to me feeling guilty when i feel happy. like… if you’re happy, that means you’re not working, which is worng.

i just need sleep.

toronto, yesterday ~6pm

date: 1114409258

mood: failing
listening to:algo rhythm – stays the same

I’m not. You are. I will be. So leave a message so I can when I am.

wow, even the band name fits.

something about moving. returning. so many people moving around this month. returning, always returning.

Dear Leonard, To look life in the face, always, to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is. At last to know it, to love it, for what it is, and then, to put it away. Leonard, always the years between us, always the years, always the love, always… the hours…

date: 1110351815

mood: ++happy, ++sleepy
listening to:

tuesday passed. with it march 8th, international women’s day which apparently had roots in u.s. who knew?
my mom said its mothers day. its not! its women’s day in russia. i still cleaned the house a bit.

i think the principle of “do nothing for a long time and small stuff will be significant” is mean but correct. as guilty as i feel for not helping out around the house, i can spend like 30 minutes tidying up and my mom is happy. its not really fair… but it worked for this day.

today the interesting dillema of where to sit in a crowded lounge occured. do you share a table with other random people? do you haunt around comfy chairs waiting for someone to move? do you simply pick another building?
no!
you find a nook between two walls where you can curl up, and spend 1.5 hours surfing wirelessly. how unproductively fun.

i realized today that you know how people always recoommend to take brain developing other materials in college. you know, if you’re in math do some humanities, etc. they are completely right. and today i became convinced that a great thing for most people to take is cognitive science. i honestly cannot claim how great it will be for your educational career, but the amount of brain stretching that goes on is awesome. you think about thinking, how emotions affect rationality (NEAT stuff), about how to build robots out of lego, how to deal with stress (on a very applicable literal level). fun! good lecture today.

also, i’m addicted to chai latte’s from 2nd cup. like, seriously. its a problem. i need help. otherwise i’ll go broke buying them.

also.

i got a job.

woo!

question of the day: how do you help out around the house, given you live with parents, as i believe majority of my readership are?

date: 1107359806

mood:
listening to:

is when you realize that next week you don’t have 4 assignments due.

nono, its 5.

monday: programming
tuesday: 2000 word essay and neural net assignment
wed: linguistics
thursday: the dreaded data logic and analysis.

so basically, until thursday 9pm, if you cant help me with the above, i don’t know you nor i have time for you. :)

i just woke up and i feel tired. and scared. and stressed. and determined to kick ass on these, but still, daunted by the fact that i only have 2 of them started. linguistics wil be easy and short, so its not _that_ big of a deal, but its at least another hour of work.
programming, i’m about 70% done. at testing/debugging stage now.
essay, doing research, as i have no sources. subject, cognitive processes of procrastination.
neural nets, will be about 6 hours of work.
data & anal.? no. clue. its hard.