date: 1090122873
mood: exceeAdingly pleased with the proposal
listening to:
http://www.mcsweeney…sts/30scenarios.html
this week felt like it lasted forever. only 5 weeks of work left. exactly. and then… a week off. and then… europe. maastricht. new things.
i can’t imagine that i have 5 weeks… okay, 6 weeks, left here.
i am happy now. its scary, to be happy.
for a long time i wasn’t happy, and i wished i could be, and i had no idea how to … be. and now, that i feel … okay, with me and things which are around me, i don’t know how i got here. is it chance? is it coincidence? is it the people who are now around me (or not around me)?
i am lucky. i was lucky in many regards, especially with my family. i never had to worry about the basic necessities, and that makes me lucky when juxtaposed with the rest of the world.
but luck has nothing to do with the way our lives turn out. i wish it was more about what we are…
brazensix, i am sorry for your multiple losses, both financial as well as the emotional weight that comes with losing personal things.
when life throws you lemons, make lemonade.
where does one get the sugar though?